Friday, March 13, 2009

In memorium!

We were walking around the three of us ! a new place for all of us......one couple and i was the only one person who was crowding the unholy trinity....but the moment we stepped onto this place we found that we were not 3 people anymore,there was a strong presence of another person....yes we couldnt see "him" but he was there alright! we all sensed "him", how couldnt we...the place we visited was raved about and was the said person's favourite place as a young chap ....he had explored its beauty and treasures alone.

i know iam not a top class writer but like all good or bad writers....our deepest longing is to put in words, emotions, feelings, point of views, colours , textures.....we are artist 's of a kind only our medium is words.....sometimes we are voyuers into life and people, we cannot help...plagarising from life...from stealing perhaps that which we have no rightful claim. so forgive me if i am treading on sacred ground but something is compelling me to write......could it be deep down a need never to forget somebody who is close to ones heart! i dont know...........

anyway...each of us reacted differently to the said presence......i recollected "him" with fond thoughts, one of us, become very sensitive to the other person and tried to be normal and give space to the person who was effected the most by" him"....why wouldnt he ....afterall can one truly ever forget ones sibling.....instantly a change came over my friend .....he became subdued ,everything took on a different meaning....my friends eyes reflected shades of grief, loss and a heartwrenching longing that he would give anything to recall the presence to life.....his eyes hungrily devoured the million wares displayed as if looking on these things would bring back something that the other had seen.....but in a way my friend did...he connected with "him".....it was a shared understanding ....and in that silence they were together! we all do that when a person we love goes away and we miss them, if we happen to visit a fave haunt....all the memories come flooding...filling us with a little ache of longing....of even sometimes a bittersweet feeling! sometimes we dont always understand our loved ones...we might know them well...but all of us have hidden recesses deep in our soul....but when moments like this happen ....a clarity of the why and how is granted us.

i asked my friend a couple of times ...if he was ok! but he reallly wanted to wrap that moment around him like a blanket and disappear into its sensations....well nothing lasts forever and he eventually returned to us as we left the place....we sensed the presense no longer "he" had disappeared into the folds of the unknown from where "he" had come ....perhaps at the beckoning of a brother's heart.
dahlin boy ...we miss you as another year of your passing remembers you.....we love you ! for in death we grant you our unconditional love....keep visiting us!

4 comments:

Captain Sam Armstrong said...

Hey J,

Nice penning of thoughts but please check the puncutations.

And for MY sake, PLEASE dont use modern day shortcuts to words; e.g., for favourite, dont write fav or fave.

In my (moi :-( ) view its a MURDER of the language and not expected from you, in the least. Its a "!!! Eeeeeks !!!". Modernism is fine but not for purists like me (us?).

For talking its ok but not for write-up and not even for SMSs.

No hard feelings though... this is my opinion and the blog is yours.

To each our own !!!

Cheers.

the pleasantone said...

army ! have you heard of e.e cummimgs??? well i follow his style no puncutations and capitals...i know you have just started to read my blog but in my early blogging days i had made it clear to all! that as a person suffering from puncutation dyslexia of some sort ....read at your own risk and add your own puncutations...and stop acting to old fashioned ....mr old fogey...if you dont get anything ask!!!! lol! btw..which isbytheway for you info which again means information..glad you are reading my ungrammatical stuff!

Captain Sam Armstrong said...

I can get the words, but its putting extra strain on my 'already tired' lil brain.

CYL
(SeeYaLater) !!! :-0

ashgoodasitgets said...

no problemo.. i loved it..!