Tuesday, August 7, 2007

a dove and a gift

i am in love again. nothin i can do about it...like the kiddo in the movie"love actually" says the total agony of being in love.you guessed right with joash (joey for short) my baby! .Joey is now 2 months old and i havent been really out anywhere,not even to church!
Yesterday my friend tina called to ask whether i would be coming to the saturday gathering(which happens every week!) i said that i couldnt,the truth to be told i was making excuses simply coz, Cheryl who was preggie along with me lost her baby when she was almost due. her eldest like mine is around the same age and our second ones would be friends too,or so we thought!i dont know how to deal with this devastating incident? i cringe from meeting her! i cant meet her all snug and in love with my bundle of joy and throw it in her face??!!!
They had decided to name the baby "callum" which means Dove! beautiful right!
Two days ago i was a wreck ,no sleep,constantly feeding,cleaning.... it was getting to me and then bang the phone rang and now i know i cant put off facing Cheryl anymore nor can i be depressed coz while i am going through a tough time,
I've a feeling Cheryl would give anything to be in my shoes!
so while her "Dove" went back to perch on God's own rainbow! i'll thank God for his Gift!and continue to deal with the total agony of being in love! i pray for healing for her and an added dash of courage and strength for both of us.
Bye bye Callum you were loved!

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